To start this off I want to share a little of who I am. My name is Emmalee Blasingame, I am 19 years old. Fun fact, I have ADHD, if you don’t know what that is let me just say it means my brain works a little different than most. I struggle with concentrating on basically anything 24/7. It also means I don’t quite always know when to stop talking. Most people call it an annoying feature, but I have learned to love it, because it means I have a better chance of being heard, or getting my point across. Anyways, my fun fact is also the one thing that has made me feel so bad, and also what made me feel so loved. Let me explain, so I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was 10 years old. With me being young I didn’t see it as a big deal at the time, but boy was I mistaken. Not long after learning about how I was a little different, I started to feel like an outcast in school, with friends, and even family. In my mind I was just on a rollercoaster of emotions and wanted to talk 24/7. This is where ADHD brought me to a low I never had felt. I didn’t understand why people called me annoying, or why I was always being told to not talk, or the best phrase I was told was to “Take your medicine”, that was the phrase that everybody used when they wanted to tell me to hush, but in a nicer way. Okay so I could go in more depth of how this diagnosys hurt me but that could take awhile.
For this next part I want to explain the good parts. So every year after learning I had ADHD, the more I felt like an outcast. Well one summer, we had this family friend, who asked my mom if she could sponsor my sister maddi and I for the following church camp. Well I had never been to a church camp. So let’s just say it opened my eyes to how good a Jesus atmosphere was and how good it feels. Well I remember on one of the nights there they asked us to look around the room at all the random stations they set up. Each station was a different adult job, from being a doctor, teacher, police officers, and the list goes on. Well I saw all my friends walk to the ones they wanted, and I kept searching for one, and I came across the missionary station. Lets just say when I realized I was there, I was by myself. So talk about feeling like an outcast or feeling different lol. But my point I am trying to get across is that in that moment, I heard God. That moment I realized how much God loves me, and that there is a reason I am the way I am. That is the exact moment my ADHD became something I loved.
I wanted to share all that with you because that is when I found God, and felt his grace. Through all that I was tested with so much hurt from people I thought loved me. I learned how it felt to be alone, and how to keep seeking something good. At such a young age I was challenged, and put through a lot of trials. The thing is, I wouldn’t ask for anything different if I could. All that is when I felt God’s love for the first time, also while hearing God tell me I was called to be a missionary. From that last day of camp, I prayed for the Lord to open my eyes, to push me out somewhere where I can help others learn about God, and feel the warmth and love he gives. I asked for a changed heart and mind. Now that I have shared my story on how my life changed for the better, it is time for the exciting part, and the whole reasoning behind this blog. I am here to share what God is doing in my life. I am attending The World Race Semesters mission trip. It will be 2 months, and I will be heading to Romania/Serbia. On this blog I will be sharing the journey I am about to partake in. I will be leaving on May 28th, and until then I will be preparing spiritually, Physically, and mentally.
For this mission trip we set a goal to raise the amount of money needed. My goal for this mission trip is 5,450 dollars. I am asking that each and everyone reading my blog if you feel like you want to help me with this trip, that there is a donate button on this page, and if you want to donate I would really appreciate it but if not it is totally okay. You can also help me by prayer, or calling me to just give advice, anything really. I want to say thank you in advance for taking time to read what I had to say.
The timing may never seem right, and the world may scare you, but when you continue to seek the Lord, you will watch yourself grow and end up in places you never thought were possible.
Dear Lord,
I pray for my eyes to stay open. I pray that when I see the destruction of the world, that my eyes will stay open and truly see the world is temporary , and Your Kingdom is FOREVER. I ask that my heart will always choose to love everything, and everybody I have contact with. I pray that no matter how much hurt something or someone brings, I will always choose to have love and show mercy. Lastly, I pray to ALWAYS say yes to whatever fear is trying to make me say no too. I ask that I will understand all my fears and learn to face them through your grace and mercy. I pray that I will cut off the supply to all the roots that bring terror to me. I pray that this trip will help me grow in a way with You Lord more than ever. Keep my eyes open, my heart full of love, and my mind concentrated on you only. Amen
